the loss

My weight loss from working at UPS has come to a slow stop. I won't lose mush more till summer and the summer heat hasn't come in full force here in Indiana yet. One area I didn't think about weight loss in was my hand. I didn't think my hands were chubby, but I guess they were. The last couple of weeks I've noticed my hands more specifically my fingers are skinnier. This is not something I would normally notice, but I have a ring I wear everyday for the past year and a half. It was just perfect when I bought it in the fall of 2009. Then It got a little tight over last summer. I thought it was because the heat expanded my hands or something. I know my hands shirk a little in the winter. Trying to save heat and everything. Back to a couple weeks ago, I noticed I was having a hard time keeping my ring on. One time I was in the bathroom washing my hands. I went to dry my hand on a towel, as I was drying my hands my ring just went flying off. Luckily it was at home and I found the ring really quick. Another time I was at work. At work I wear gloves to protect my hands from all the boxes. As I was moving boxes I actually felt my ring slip past my knuckle. My hand was in a gripping position, the ring should not have slipped past my knuckle. It also felt weird to have my ring on the front half of my finger. I did have my gloves on so I just pushed it back on.

My job has been a crazy adventure. Most of them are lame and stupid but I'm still surprised that I'm having them. I hope I didn't bore everyone to death. Only a couple more hours till the "rapture!" I can't wait to start looting. Yes, I don't think I'm going to make it up in the rapture. I'll miss Allison most of all, but I'll see her in five months when the world ends. If it doesn't happen today, well I guess I'll just go to work on Monday like normal.

the weight

One week ago I was married to my wife. It has been one of the most amazing weeks since then. I consider myself the luckiest guy in all of Idaho right now. With marriage comes a new ordainment to my body. I am now wearing a wedding ring. I’ve never been much of a jewelry guy in my life. My senior year in high school is the only other time I’ve ever really worn a ring. It was a small one I wore on my middle finger. I wore it for about four or five months before I got sick of it and it broke on me. I never replaced it, because I no longer felt like wearing jewelry. My wedding ring is very different than that ring. For one it’s on my ring finger instead of my middle finger. Second it’s much heavier than that ring. It feels like my finger is getting a work out all day. By the end of the night I can barely lift my hand. I’ve never felt like this before. It’s just a ring on my finger and my whole hand is sore. I want to just put my finger into a sling because it’s so heavy.

This weight is more than just physical weight. The soreness is also a reminder of the fact that I’m married. I have never been one of those guys who believe that marriage is prison or the end of my life. I am now seeing why people might say that. My wife is amazing, but this ring is a huge weight. It’s like I have a ball and chain to my finger. The weight helps me remember my wife too. It helps me remember how much she loves. It’s there to help me remember that I have someone to go home to every night. It’s there to show me that I’m no longer alone. My finger might feel like it has a weight on it, but my soul feels as if a weight has been lifted off it. It’s such an odd feeling. My hand feels weighed down, but my soul is feeling like it’s in the heavens. Only my wife has been able to make me feel the way I am. I’ll take a sore hand for a while to be with the most wonderful woman in the world.